Numb.

I have been job less for the past 5 months. I have applied to hundreds and hundreds of job openings that I spotted on various sources. I have contacted the recruiters that came to campus. So far, the result is still nada.

I think I'm starting to get used to hearing "Sorry, but the company has decided not to go forward with your candidacy," or "We have decided to pursue other candidates at this time," or "Our company policies require someone who has permanent residency or US citizenship." There is no more shock in those words again. I used to eagerly wait for the responses from various companies that gave me a call back, or nervously open the incoming e-mail in my inbox. Recently, I have started losing those kind of feelings. I only have a flat feeling, when I'm opening those letters, and accepting those calls. I, somehow, know that they'd reject me. I'm getting used to rejection, to put in short. Still wondering when will I hear positive news; the end of this job searching journey. I would really love to see the end of this tunnel. It starts getting me frustrated and depressed. God, please help me..